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the sad sad life of mimi.
so be ready.
coz itz gonna be f*ckin' jiwang.
*hahakzZZZ!!!!!

something struck me wen Naz told Ah fad...
"Lan tunang bulan 4 tau fad..."
then he look at me and rubbed my back..and said, sabar aje...

if u said that i was "the one",
why haven't we try at it again...
the one last time..

**i wouldn't have left you, i'd rather die then leave you alone...

Friday, February 29, 2008 // 12:08 AM

There's a thousand words that
I could say, to make you come home, yeah
seems so long ago you walked away
left me alone
And I remeber what you said to me,
you were acting so strange
And maybe I was too blind to see
that you needed a change

was it something I said to make you turn away
to make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
to make it so that you were right here, right now

I've been sitting here
can't get you off my mind
I'm trying my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane, wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains, you're Gone

Now I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do, won't you please let me know
Time is passing so slowly now, guess that's my life without you
And maybe I could change my everyday, but baby I don't want to

So I'll just hang around and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
And I know in my heart, you can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do, yeah

CHORUS - Repeat

What will I do if I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to, baby who will I be
Now that we are apart, am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see that I need you here with me?

CHORUS - Repeat

if there is a way back to your heart plaese tell me..
i'll do anything...
anything..

**please tell me coz its too hard goin on without you...

Wednesday, February 27, 2008 // 8:19 PM

today i feel so hope-less. yet again i fail. im just a born fail-er.i was so ashamed of myself that wen i was on my way home i looked down all the way, thinking of my most favourite word in my life, "fail-er". i'll always fail in whatever i do. maybe i'm just too dumb and slow. so much for my goals in life. here i am telling others not to give up. but look at how i am doing. just pathetic. i wish to be alone now. even though i know that being alone wont do me good. Fuck this feeling. haiz... wished i had someone to talk to...

**i cried myself to sleep yesterday,coz i was so lonely,then i realized that i was missing you...

// 12:43 AM

alot of people didnt noe wat i gone thru in life. i feel so full of shame wen i tell them about it. it's so hard to let go of my mistakes, hence it always haunt me every nite. remembering those blankets, those 4 walls , those food i ate. yes i didnt get to life a good life untill i am 21, so wat, at least i get to learn the hard way. and i'm proud of it. i learn how to live life eventhoug its so hard. but this is the first time i feel so bad.argh..watever it is its GOD will show everything to me. GOD has planned out how my life is gonna be and i have to choose wats rite for me. i just experience someone who was goin to get married this May fall apart into pieces and i imagine how hard it is for her now. wat life is goin to bring to us is so unpredictable. but thats life.wat u go thru is part and parcel of life. it teaches u something that u gonna use in the future. but sometimes u dont choose the future. u dwell on the past. sometimes it hurts too much for u to look forward to ur future. but again this is life.for the first time, i feel so lonely. maybe i jus take care of ibu the rest of my life,as how she had done since i came into her life...

**i could do or be whatever everyone wants me too,but deep down inside only, I will know the truth...

Tuesday, February 26, 2008 // 1:46 AM

it's my off day today. DAMN u Alex!!! i wanted it on my chalet days not today.its a stupid monday. nothing to do. but this whole week i'll be working office hours everyday. i dont feel like working more. but maybe less. still waiting for my own store to be opened. but i not looking forward to go there too. evryone wa saying "azmi,ur habourfornt will be like tis, like that..." urgh so fuck it,i dont really care. i juz didnt wan to job hop,that y im still here...once i got my Dip i be some where else...thats wad i hope...

i started out in sec sch so badly i wished i could go back in time to study hard.. if not i wont be like this uh. i had this besfren from sch,he's still contacting me,but he's still into all those gangsterism shit so i dont really meet him that often. we used to drink,fight,did alot of things. yes..we were from the same group,but had different heads. i mixed with ppl frm tanglin halt and teck whye lane. i even had ppl under me.tat was my time uh. i was number 1 in sch. the guy u never look at,or u get it frm behind. i was popular for the wrong reasons.
after sch, i got into aot of trouble,drugs,tatoos, fights,not with bare hands but with parangs and choppers.den one day i got caught wit possession with offensive weapon. i was sent to prison for 3 months wen i was just 17. untill then i still didnt realize. i went on and got into trouble,wen in for 1 month and 9 months after that. but wen i saw ibu cry on the third time i wen in i realized i had to stop. i even fought in prison and wen to Punishment cell and cant get a visit for a whole month. after 6 months of prison i was given home detention,i wen out early but had this taggin device on my foot. i only could go out at 7am to 7pm. i never seen the moon for the next 3 months.i wen to NS after that and i also made some trouble there. i wen to DB and spent like 2 and a half years there.everyone ORD first. every single one of my frens. haiz. wat alife rite. but i learned alot abt the hardship of life. enjoyment too. i've already started to club wen i was 16,smoked wen i was 12,untill now. it was sparks,house of ong,fire,ST,tunnel,the old MOS,so many matrip clubs.hahaha. but the ppl i new now all are running from being caught frm 5-5. its been so long...i had enuf already.of enjoyment and hardships of life. i neary also saw a frem mearly get killed uh. but this is life...

Naz was there to wen all happened,i new him for already 5 years and hes going to get married aready this nov. wen to go to his wedding preps. and it reminded me...but its ok...

Natasha,i new her for already 14 years. she wanted to get to noe u, we saw her at esplanade remember. but i didnt wanna make u jealous or angry thats y i didnt meet her or wanted u to noe her.

there my 3 best frens,Kenet,Natasha And Nazrudy...

now im starting to rebuild life,its been 2 years plus since i got into trouble. and im happy. at least i achieved one of my goals.

i met so many people in my life,but i never tot that 'She' could made a great impact in my life...
wen she see me i'll give the biggest smile anyone could give her...
if its fate,then we'll meet again...
either in this life or heaven...


**dont ever pull my mask out, coz u'll noe wats really behind it...

Monday, February 25, 2008 // 5:09 PM

i had a weekend chalet for ibu's bday,i went to werk den to chalet den to werk again den to chalet,check out and went to werk,yes, again... i have not have enuf sleep for the last 3 days,but it seems that i still cant sleep today.alah, its normal...everytime i force myself to sleep i will start to hear my own heartbeat. sucky rite. it doesnt make sense..and becoz of this,i've not been eating well. i only eat oncce a day and that also i dont even finish half of wat i bought.i gotten skinny-er. even my pants that i wear with my belt is now like so 'melurut'.hahaha. no more boncit-ness.i've also lost intrest in the things i loved do,work,psp,clubing.wat wrong with me,damn!back to my weekend. i bought for ibu an esprit watch and she loved it. a sense of appreciation. hahahaha. everyone came to the chalet and i invited natasha.she wanted to mit my mom and sis but then she came too late.but then we chilled out together eating bbq stuff uh. if not becoz of my bestfren,i think i be somewhere alone uh.thanks girl...

yah on the first day of the chalet,me,wak,joe,ibu,wak lan and along sat together and talked alot about relationship. damn was kinda weird but it was still funny uh. they told us abt their story. my aunt and uncle met once and they didnt like each other,but after a few years later they meet again.dah jodoh is wat the say..so the moral of the story is watever u feel or do now,kalo its jodoh,it will never go anywhere. typical org tua rite..haha, then they started to disturb me and wak. hahaha.

as i dont sleep often i tried to write poems...so this is how it goes...

We were just friends at the start,
Always having fun, never apart
Then one day, something sparked
The next thing I knew, you had my heart.

The days flew by,
I lost track of time
Everytime I was with you,
I was on cloud nine.

Then one day, i asked you to be mine,
YES! you exclaimed and prayed we'd last until the very end.
No one could look into my eyes and say I wasn't happy,
Happy that I was with you, and you were with me.

With you in my arms, you told me you loved me,
Then i gently kissed your forehead and gave you a squeeze.
I was convinced you were the one for me,
Apart from you, I would never be.

Just when I thought all was well,
Was when you began to put me through hell.
You said, we should just be friends
That's when I knew it was the end.

I looked into your eyes, trying to find out why,
It was all I could do, not to begin to cry.
Where I once saw love, I saw nothing,
I couldn't believe you no longer felt something.

I lay in bed, counting my tears,
Each representing what I'd hoped would be years.
Years of happiness, for us to be together,
A long-lived life, forever and ever.

But in my heart, I know this will never be,
For in yours, no longer is there a place for me.
I gave you my all, I gave you my heart,
Little did I know that you'd tear it apart.

Everyday I place a smile on my face,
As for the tears, there is not a single trace.
You ripped me apart, but yet it's true,
Forever and always, I will always still LOVE YOU.

it took some time for me to put this up together. More will surely come,but u'll just have to wait.

and wen i couldnt sleep i tot of wat to do in life..

• Pass my 2B den 3. coz i'm sick and tired of cabs and public transport. and so i'll can travel aniwhere and have so much time to spend.
• Get a Diploma. So i can get out of this fucking job and get a real one.
• I-pod Touch. i was going to buy it but looking how much i spend this month alone(and the month is not up yet. is a staggering S$3k. what the hell i did with the money."i dont noe"
• RL/Ben Shermans/Lacoste/Fred Perry. WOW! i want those... lots of it..i got two RL and a Lacoste but i wan new ones
• NB shoes.
• Nikon DSLR D40X. i wanna take up PHOTOGRPHY
• To take care of ibu my whole life.No matter i get married or not.
• To built a time machine to correct all my mistakes in life and my bad marks in my history.

to be succesfull and achieve happiness in life is the greatest achievement anybody would want to have. to think of the future is not stupid. to have a goal is the main reason in life. work for it. and never give up, coz life is not a comic book,a soap opera, a fairy tale, a bedtime story. the heroes will die and the villans will win. life is not fair. its a cruel place wit betrayalers & back stabbers. so quit hoping and work hard for it. dont just sit there and hope. Go for it. Your hard work will finnaly pay off.

**take care of urself.u noe that u'll always be in my heart...

Sunday, February 24, 2008 // 11:54 PM

hmmm..wak came down to 'lepak' wit me yestaday and he also have peruaded me not to go IMH. hes gonna help me in everyway he can and strongly object to it.

yestaday.. i was in the train listening to music,then two couple walked beside me...i new them,we were beside each other but the didnt reconize me.hahaha.after saying hi,the look shocked to see me. coz i looked different after the years. btw congrats to jogi and jija coz the are expecting their no. 3. the last time i saw them was with their 1st child.

yestaday.. Benjamin came down to meet me and RY, he told us that he got into an accident the day b4, his car was sratched frm the drivers door to the passenger door. he fell asleep driving coz he was so damn tired and he was travelling at 120km/h. wah...it was a good thing to see him yeastaday.if not he would be.. he was also so angry becoz of his wife...he got into that accident but then his wife was so angry becoz he didnt reply her msg.Pity him...i just tried to cool him down and try to reason with him.. but he was damn 'Tu Lan'.

yestaday.. on my way hm from werk,i was listening to music..walking to the bus stop. then i was needed to cross a 2 lane road. i tot i was a one way road so i looked on my right once den i went on to cross. suddenly i heard a hard breaking sound. a taxi was just beside me, just a foot away. i was so sorry,i said soory to him alot of times. if he hadnt break in time i would be at the hospital rite now. thank GOD.

yestaday also i had the best sleep that i ever had in weeks,i slept at 1am and woke up at 6am..was so nice..but the reason i woke up becoz i dreamt.damn... sucks uh...
still tired now. so im going to try and sleep again now..

ZZzzZZzzZZ**

Friday, February 22, 2008 // 11:06 AM

it not that i wanna make u feel that way...
i just need more time...
i wanna be happy too...
who likes being sad everyday rite?
i did wat u ask me to do...
just tat this is a place for me to express myself aite...
May GOD always look after u and bring u happiness..
amin~

last few days i caught up wit a long lost fren...
been three years uh...
u changed,ur hair,ur appearence...
three years just pass like that...
but i can still reconize u uh...
u still can recall 3 years back uh...
suprisingly...
mee too uh...
it was nice talking abt the past...
those were memories uh...
memories will last a lifetime...
but sayangnyer...
u are still short...
hahaha...
it was nice chatting with u..

Thursday, February 21, 2008 // 12:09 PM

// 12:12 AM

i see soo much sadness in my life rite now. i been down the whole week,drinking,sitting down alone,doing nothing. i felt like running away to someplace no-one would ever find me. a place where i could forget all my past my present and my future. there neva was a chance for me to have another chance. another chance that i can change the past. i tot i was getting better in life. but in the joy appearing on my face, i've so much sadness that can never be erased. Sadness that bring me to a stage that i wanna end my life to make all my sadness go away. if i could i would. becoz my love to GOD is far far greater than anything in the world for me. i can neva be suicide-dal even if i wanted it so badly.

to noe that u're goin out with someone is hurting me. making me jealous. knowing u knew him at a club, makes me even more dissapointed. i wanted the best for u. but the best wanst enough. i'm trying to go on with life but it so damn hard to and u'll never understand. coz u're heart is as hard as a rock. enjoyment is wat u seek for. but for me, the future was wat i'm worried for, the future was wad i was preparing for. so u could have a good life. a great one. so i could fufill ur dreams of just sitting at home. not working. i was suffering to make that a reality. thats why i wanted to upgade myself,get more money. it was for you. but u didn't seem to understand. i was looking so high above the mountains but u were just looking down.wen i nearly reached the peak, u pushed me down and left me to die alone.

it was u.my favourite gerl in the world,the princess of my life. and i still can't take it into my heart, the words u say to me, the reasons u told me. i did it for you. and now my dreams becomes my nightmares which makes me awake everynite. it easy for u to ask me to try.but saying and doing is two different things.

but i never heard u say that u don't love me anymore.

it lingers in my mind if wen u're alone, if u ever think of me?

for the first time in my life. it seems that my life is so full of sadness. it seems to me that happiness comes just comes in a while,and doesnt stay for long. its the first time thats its so hard.

i realized that im a nobody. useless u can say. i didnt even fight for wat i wanted.
reality is that im just to dumb and stupid. im not rich,i dont have any good points in me.im not handsome.i don't have the looks. i don't have the brains. i dont have anything. i'm nothing.

so.. LIFE = sadness

memories will always be with me.and the hurt will never go away. coz u were my everything...

butu'll never ever understand wat i'm going thru..

i dont even noe if u even cared...

i love u Nur Shafawati...

if i have a choice who i would want to meet in HEAVEN..
it will surely be..

you...

this is a song i used to sing to u...
i loved wen u beg me to...

Wednesday, February 20, 2008 // 9:24 PM

Outta My System

Oh

Damn
I mean
I just keep thinking about you

Aww Baby!

I mean I wanna move on
But I can't move on

Oh oh woo oh oh

It's like you got some kinda hold on me
And you know I Don't Know

Oh oh oh oh oh

But Imma gone head and talk about it
Listen,

I'm sitting lookin' out the window like, damn
Tryna fix the situation thats at hand
You still running through my mind
When I'm knowin' that you shouldn't be
Me I'm on your mind
And I'm knowin' that it couldn't be
Cause you ain't called
I ain't even apauled
I still got a lot of pain
I ain't dealt wit it all
I been runnin' round wit other chicks
I'm single and they lovin' it
I'm liking it
But I just want the one that I was in love wit
Thats not the end of it
I'm tryna let you go
I cant get a grip of it is what I'm trynna let you know
You got a hold of some kinda control of me
I don't know what it is
But I gotta get you gone from me
I'm working at it
And it ain't getting no better
Just tryna be like
Yea, forget it, whatever
Instead of staring out this glass
Looking at this bad weather
Damn, I gotta pull myself together
Cause

When I'm with Somebody
All I think bout is you
When I'm all alone
Thats all I wanna do
I miss the smiley faces in my sidekick
Outta town business
All the time we spent together
Makes it hard to get you
Outta my system
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand
Damn
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you
Outta my system

I'm too attached
My heart won't let me fall back
I got it bad
Thats what you could call that (ah)
And when I see you on the streets
Thats the worst for me
Used to love the little things you did
Thats what works for me
It's too major
Don't see you in my pager
No
What you doing?
Where you at?
Can I see you later?
The fellas telling me
Just let her go Bow
Believe me I'm trying man
I just don't know how
I be in all the top spots
Leaving with the hot shots
Knowing they just want me cause i'm in the top spot
Thats not poppin'
And my brain ain't stoppin'
Thinkin'
Who she wit?
Or Where she goin'?
is she club hoppin?
I never had this kinda problem in my life
This is my first time
Dealin' with this kinda fight
Its every night
And every flight
And every time you in my sight
Damn, this ain't even right
Cause

When I'm with Somebody
All I think bout is you
When I'm all alone
Thats all I wanna do
I miss the smiley faces in my sidekick
Outta town visits
All the time we spend together
Makes it hard to get you
Outta my system
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand
Damn
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you
Outta my system

Is it wrong for me to feel this way
You been running through my mind all day
Can ya feel me
I been tryna get you off my mind
But I can't
After all this time
Thats what kills me

Is it wrong for me to feel this way
You been running through my mind all day
Can ya feel me
I been tryna get you off my mind
But I can't
After all this time
And it's kills me

When I'm with Somebody
All I think bout is you
When I'm all alone
Thats all I wanna do
I miss the smiley faces in my sidekick
Outta town visits
All the time we spend together
Makes it hard to get you
Outta my system
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand
Damn
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you
Outta my system

I remember everything that me and you talked about
Me and you had our whole life planned out together
And if I could I would
Turn back the hands of time
And correct all my mistakes that I ever did
But now I guess I gotta move on right?
It's still hard
And I still love you till this day
Peace

Tuesday, February 19, 2008 // 11:59 AM

u dont even noe how much i miss u.how much i wanna turn back time.how much i miss seing ur face.ur smile.ur cute face wen u looking up to me wen u leaning on my shoulder.mis the time wen u pinch me.miss the time wen u just hug me wen u miss me.miss u wen i see woodlands mrt.miss u wen i pass sgh.miss u so much no other person would undestand.i wasted my life so much.i out of words to say.i tried.i tried to move on. but everyting reminds me of u.every nite wen i see patrick starfish on my bed it reminds me of u.everyone tells me,"Botak,move on". even ibu. but the truth is i cant. even jaspal says,"azmi,u are depressed" even wen im eating my dinner.i tried so hard.eve if u are not here. i always miss u.u wouldnt understand.no one. not even ibu.it was so hard to tell ibu that i wsnt wit u animore.until she say that i've changed. i miss u so badly.do dearly.if only i could...

please come back...

Sunday, February 17, 2008 // 10:05 PM

i cant do it.i tried.was my mistakes tat bad.to just meet u up is so hard.i dont noe why.were u really suffering during our time.or u just want time to go out.to have fun.coz u still young.u want to see everything.i noe im not handsome.i dont noe how to dress up.but...

maybe wen i talked to u abt our future..
it struck u and made u realize...

// 7:20 PM

kill me now...
coz im sick and tired of living...

Saturday, February 16, 2008 // 2:23 AM

才離開沒多久就開始擔心今天的妳過得好不好
cai li kai mei duo jiu jiu kai shi dan xin jin tian de ni guo de hao bu hao
I�ve only left for a short while and already started to worry about how you�re doing today

整個畫面是妳想妳想的睡不著
zheng ge hua mian shi ni xiang ni xiang de shui bu zhao
My mind�s filled with you, as I think about you I can�t fall asleep

嘴嘟嘟那可愛的模樣還有在妳身上香香的味道
zui du du na ke ai de mo yang hai you zai ni shen shang xiang xiang de wei dao
Your cute expression when you pout, and also the fragrance on your body

我的快樂是妳想妳想的都會笑
wo de kuai le shi ni xiang ni xiang de dou hui xiao
My happiness is you, as I think about you I always smile

Chorus 1

沒有妳在我有多難熬
mei you ni zai wo you duo nan ao
When you�re not here, it�s so hard for me to bear

(沒有妳在我有多難熬多煩惱)
(mei you ni zai wo you duo nan ao duo fan nao)
(When you�re not here, it�s so hard for me to bear, so troubled)

沒有妳煩我有多煩惱
mei you ni fan wo you duo fan nao
When I don�t have you to think about, I am so troubled

(沒有妳煩我有多煩惱多難熬)
(mei you ni fan wo you duo fan nao duo nan ao)
(When I don�t have you to think about, I am so troubled, so hard for me to bear)

穿過雲層我試著努力向妳奔跑
chuan guo yun ceng wo shi zhe nu li xiang ni ben pao
Breaking through the clouds, I tried hard to run to you

愛才送到妳卻已在別人懷抱
ai cai song dao ni que yi zai bie ren huai bao
Just when love arrived, you were already in someone else�s arms

Chorus 2

就是開不了口讓她知道
jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao
I just can�t open my mouth to let her know

我一定會呵護著妳也逗妳笑
wo yi ding hui he hu zhe ni ye dou ni xiao
I will surely protect you and make you laugh

妳對我有多重要我後悔沒讓妳知道
ni dui wo you duo zhong yao wo hou hui mei rang ni zhi dao
You are so important to me, I regret not letting you know

安靜的聽妳撒嬌看妳睡著一直到老
an jing de ting ni sa jiao kan ni shui zhao yi zhi dao lao
Quietly listening to you whine, watching you sleep till we grow old

就是開不了口讓她知道
jiu shi kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi dao
I just can�t open my mouth to let her know

就是那麼簡單幾句我辦不到
jiu shi na me jian dan ji ju wo ban bu dao
Those mere simple sentences, I can�t say them

整顆心懸在半空我只能夠遠遠看著
zheng ke xin xuan zai ban kong wo zhi neng gou yuan yuan kan zhao
My whole heart hangs in the air, I can only watch from afar

這些我都做得到但那個人已經不是我
zhe xie wo dou zuo de dao dan na ge ren yi jing bu shi wo
I can do all these things but that person is already not me

Thursday, February 14, 2008 // 4:02 PM

watever happens...
remember...
u noe that...
I'LL LEAVE EVERYTHING TO BE WITH U...

waiting is the hardest part...

Tuesday, February 12, 2008 // 7:43 PM

after reading abt it all...i realized u cant forget him.i never tot tat would be the reason why we fell apart but i think thats the reason why... u were the one who was so scared i would do tat but u were the one...and u caught me with my guard down...all tat u wanted..i tried..it was always wad u wanted...did u ever ask me wat i wanted...now im alone...u were selfish...i didnt think that u were like tat...even wen u did things without telling me,behind my back...i didnt keep it in...i forgive and already forgotten...but now u are pointing ur fingers at me...saying it was all my fault..if u are happy to see someone suffer for a long time...then yes! u have succeeded...thank u for everything.no matter wat,i always love u...no matter wad happens...it ok if u and ur frens look up to me as the villain... only ur heart will tell u the truth....

Monday, February 11, 2008 // 6:53 PM

depression...
insomnia...
late nites alone...
at last ibu found out...
she ask y im not my usual self animore...
i nearly cried wen i told her everything...
damn!!
at least ibu noes how i feel...
arrrgghhh!!!

just let me DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!

**if hurt isn't LOVE...then its not Love afterall...

Sunday, February 10, 2008 // 4:38 AM

well,this is life...watever u do u wont succeed,well maybe ur job only.what happiness are u looking for??can't u remember u are damned for life.since the day u 1st day that u realize to bring a knife to geylang on hari raya eve in 2002,ur damn the whole life.well u wanted it.since sue left u..u were thinking of just taking care of mom and dad.if that is wat u wanted then thats wad god will give u.thats my opinion.sue was everything to u.she made u laugh made u smile made u happy but u blew it.ur temper showed it all...i was very happy wen i see u wit her...but u blew it mimi.u blew it that bad.now shes engaged to someone,im happy to see her lyke tat..im sure u are too..but it took u a while to forget her...if i could recall it was at least a year and a half...

this is the time wen she got back from k.l..u wen drinking wit her..at ngee ann city uh...well after she left u,i noe u were suffering..still remember wen u met her for the last time at vivo wen i just only opened..the third day of raya in 2005,she broke her shoes so she wanted to buy a new one.then went to ps to go drink.after that u never saw her again...is she still working at starbucks?but wad she did to u was very awful..she always put her frens b4 u...but after a year u knew she wasnt the one for u.then u let go...i'm proud u finally did that...she also once told u that if ever once u went awol or go detention barracks she'll neva call u again.so u have to rite mimi?u had to go detention for 10 days...thats add ur fabulous history to a 3 months and 9 months stay at admilrity west prison...well good for u mimi...

after aue left u...u came to mit ur old frens...

u became an acoholic..u clubb nearly everyday..u neva went home..neva around...u became wad u were...u become worst..tat tyme wen u were like tat,i still remember u started to talk to shafa...

after sometime after u mit her..u change uh..i was shocked...u got u life back on track and changed for the better... after ns u got a job...stayed there till now...see where u are...well on ur way to ur promotion..i hope...den one day u decided it was time for u n shafa to get engaged...u worked so hard for it...i pity u but u forgot her in the proccess.mimi,if god would want u to be with her,there nothing that can saperate u.u forgot to make happy,to ask her if she had a problem...if she was happy.i noe i noe,she doesnt talk much...im disapointed wit u...once more u fod someone...someone u say u loved more than sue...u are pathetic...after shafa left u,u even cant hold urself together...i noe u did all this for her but...think...think of wad went wrong...correct it...win her heart back..u're just useless mimi...wake up!!!!!! quite dwelling at wat happened.get ur mind straight...if shes ur everything then change the world...make her fall in love wit u like how u did wen she fall in love wit u the first time..

i noe it hard but shes still here wit u...shes giving u chance...

this is the cabaran set by god to u,learning lessons 4 u to learn from.she have never hated u...4 me she still love u..but wat u have to do is to stop crying like a baby..be a man...put everything behind..and go for it...if it was meant to be then u'll be wit her...god will always ask u to doa for wat u want but u have to work for it too..remember mimi..'kalo jodoh tak ke mana'

so stop ur nonsense...get back to ur life..and get her back into ur life...

i noe u'll always be there for her and that u always love her...

forget ur past and look forward to ur future aite...

Monday, February 04, 2008 // 12:59 AM

u seem enjoying urself now...

pls tell me how u do it?

Friday, February 01, 2008 // 10:54 PM

Mimi a.k.a Botak...
21 going 22
weird...
gila...
biol...
tak hensem...
hitam...
u noe black....
gelap...
hodoh...
buruk...
i'm 1.81m...
u must be short...
hahaha...
sum say i look like a nerd...
sum say im slenge...
loud...
most of the time funny....
sumtimes lame...
can't be denied...
tak betul...
loves cars...
weird...
emo...
hahaha...
tats mi...
mimi...
mimi the botak guy at sch tat time...
so...
there u go...
...


**mimi

->JoeY
->MJ
->syaZ
->AyU
->ShaFa


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